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  • WHAT DOES LEXIE THINK OF KADE 4 REAL?
  • Does she ever regret not having gotten involved in (or just being born a bit too late for) something like the X-Men, or even X-Force?

- Kade

WHAT DOES LEXIE THINK OF KADE 4 REAL?

HE'S OKAY SHE GUESSES. Lexie would probably be more open and easy with Kade if he weren't dating Ciel, which probably sounds strange. But she's kind of wary of the whole idea of their relationship: getting with a guy you had a crush on as a teenager doesn't sound like a great idea for a friend, and it started out kind of shaky, and then certain things seemed to move kind of fast, etc. etc. She doesn't dislike Kade, but she's wary. She's super protective of Ciel and she's seen her at a really awful low point in her life, and she's also seen her kind of build herself back up here in New York. She doesn't want someone knocking that down even if they're well-meaning about it.

From a non-Ciel perspective, she thinks Kade is pretty fun. She thinks he's kind of a dork in that way where he's old and still acts a bit young and she's like, lol old people. YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER KADE. NO SHE DOESN'T WANT TO SEE PICTURES OH MY GOD YOU'RE SO OOOOOOOOOOOOOLD. AT LEAST JEREMY ADMITS HE'S AN OLD DORK.

Does she ever regret not having gotten involved in (or just being born a bit too late for) something like the X-Men, or even X-Force?

Mm. Sometimes. She mostly didn't want to join X-Force growing up because she didn't like the idea of working in the government hierarchy because she's a wild child like that. But on the other hand -- she did still want to be a hero, you know? She loves the idea of the most exciting parts of it, the running around the world and being awesome and saving the world and all of that. She was always ridiculously proud of her brother and sister-in-law and even her dad and everyone she knew in X-Force for doing what they did. I think she would have chosen that over the X-Men, if someone gave her the choice, just because of the family connection. But mostly she was born too late, and didn't even really end up with the option.

What is Lexie's spirituality (if any) like? We've touched on this vaguely in recent convo re: her Jew godfather but I'm curious about not so much the nitty gritty as the broad strokes.

What does she think of working for XFS?

What is Lexie's spirituality (if any) like? We've touched on this vaguely in recent convo re: her Jew godfather but I'm curious about not so much the nitty gritty as the broad strokes.

She doesn't think about it. Her dad's mostly Catholic and her mom's (nominally?) Orthodox and Lexie spends a lot of time not caring about it. She's got kind of a fierce personal religion of BE A HERO and HELP PEOPLE and also PARTY HARD AND BE AWESOME. I mean, I don't think that either of her parents are fiercely religious, and I don't know that Lexie is an atheist so much as she doesn't think it's important in a way. Life is about the here and now, and she owes people her action here on earth.

If there is a God? Well, that'd be okay, but she better not hate women or gay people or trans people or anyone else because fuck that shit.

What does she think of working for XFS?

She likes it! I mean, there's a bit of overlap here, because sometimes XFS might handle the type of work that she and Ciel do on their own, so she doesn't want to undercut her own business entirely. But she totally believes in this mission Jeremy's on of letting mutants be employed as mutants and actually use their mutations to make money. It'd be exploitative if it was a bunch of norms doing it or whatever, but this is a bunch of mutants making their own business in the heart of the ghetto that the rest of the world has put them in. It's not just a job for Lexie; it's a rebellion.

  • Lexie went to great lengths to help Rohan, especially with his mutation by bringing Tom in (and serving as guinea pig). Rohan is completely confused by this, as he doesn't expect anyone to help him unless they want something or he makes a concerted effort to charm them. Please discuss her reasons. (I won't accuse her of wanting to jump his bones. ;))

It's true that her reasoning had nothing with wanting to jump his bones, because she doesn't. (Although she certainly thinks he's attractive! So you can have that.) There are a few reasons:

  • Lexie feels fiercely about the responsibility of the mutant community to help each other. The mundies aren't do anything to help them; they've only got each other. It's why she's made her business here, and it's how she's ended up with a lot of favors throughout the neighborhood.
  • She has an overactive sense of empathy. The fact that he was struggling and she had a way to help made it very likely that -- she would help.
  • She actually -- kind of likes Rohan? Not like that, but she enjoys his company when he's not like being super emo about loving her bestie.
  • Helping Rohan also meant getting her brother to visit, which was a fringe benefit for her. Until he started being a jerk. It's funny how you can forget that about your family.
  • I don't know that she'd categorize the whole thing as "great lengths." He probably sees her help as a lot bigger than she did.

So. JEREMY. How much of his reluctance is Peter, how much of it is hating himself, and how much of it is because gay? Discuss.

Richie and Iz have this really weird ex-but-almost-friends-but-almost-maternal sort of relationship going on, at least from her end - but she's lived a whole life without him. What's the relationship look like from his side? Why's she still able to convince him to do stuff?

Other than Peter, what's Rich miss most about his AU?

So. JEREMY. How much of his reluctance is Peter, how much of it is hating himself, and how much of it is because gay? Discuss.

Mmmmmaybe 50/30/20. Peter is the biggest part of it, absolutely, but I think Richard would probably say it's the part, which isn't really accurate. It's the part that he's most conscious of and the part he likes to focus on, despite also hating to focus on it. In a strange way, it's the most legitimate reason. He loved and maybe lost. He doesn't know if his love is actually lost or if he's coming back. People respect that. They don't argue "oh, you should totally mentally abandon this guy who might be fighting to get back to you." If you tell people "I don't deserve you because I suck," they argue. If you tell people, "I'm kind of uncomfortable with this whole being out as a queer man," they maybe don't argue so overtly, but they work with it to help.

Probably someone should argue with Rich that Peter would never have wanted him to live the way he's living, but certainly Jeremy's not in the position to be that person, and he clearly knows that.

I find the gay thing really interesting. Rich has always been fairly queer-friendly, as it were, back when he thought he was straight. But he's got a lot of ingrained stuff going on. And sure, he was actually in a queer relationship off for a yearish with Peter, but that was -- you know, in a totally different world. This is the first time he's entering into something back home. In front of people he knows. And people he doesn't know. Who have feelings about it. He has a lot to kind of deprogram, and he's actually done barely any of it before getting with Jeremy.

Richie and Iz have this really weird ex-but-almost-friends-but-almost-maternal sort of relationship going on, at least from her end - but she's lived a whole life without him. What's the relationship look like from his side? Why's she still able to convince him to do stuff?

Above all, Isabel is familiar. And of the people familiar to her, she was one of the closest to him. Their breakup is obviously closer for him than her, but there's still plenty of distance there for him to have moved on to a place where he could be comfortable with her. She's an anchor, in a way. She's someone who knows him and still believes in him. Jeremy believe in him, sure, but Isabel knew the old him. The daring, reckless hero. The guy who saved lives.

The maternal thing is hard for him, to be honest. He likes their relationship best when it feels more like the friendship they had. The maternal aspect is too new and alien a feeling for him.

But as for why she's able to get him to do things? Part of it is that the things she pushes him to do are things that he wants to do in some small corner of his heart. Some of it is reflex and the year or so of being friends and a boyfriend to Isabel. Part of it is that he desperately needs someone to push him.

Other than Peter, what's Rich miss most about his AU?

I think the clarity of it. Earth is very much about shades of grey, and X-Force was definitely about shades of grey. The AU was not grey. The AU was a galactic-scale war against an unambiguous evil. Rich was a hero there in the purest sense of the word. Even when he was losing, I think there was something desperately thrilling about it.

Also: how fast he could go. Rich has always had this restlessness, even when he's happy. Even when he's purely happy, he's also looking ahead, and even when he's going fast, he wants to be going faster. I think, in some way, the AU was where he finally got to be fast enough to stop.

  • If Richard and Batman got in a fight, who do you OOCly think would win? Who does RICHARD ICLY think would win?
  • Does Richard think X-Force would still exist if the destruction of Staten Island hadn't happened (Kade has his own Opinions)?

- Kade Player

If Richard and Batman got in a fight, who do you OOCly think would win? Who does RICHARD ICLY think would win?

OOCly? I think -- idk, I go back and forth. Probably Rich? He's trained enough that it's not just purely a speed advantage. Batman's pretty badass, though. I dunno.

ICly Rich 100% does not believe he can beat Batman because Batman is a superhero and real people shouldn't beat them.

Does Richard think X-Force would still exist if the destruction of Staten Island hadn't happened (Kade has his own Opinions)?

Yes. X-Force had become national heroes and thrived for some thirty years in his absence. He returned, caused the destruction of Staten Island, and X-Force shuttered within months.

It doesn't matter how much people like Isabel tell him "they were just looking for an excuse." He 100% thinks it would still be running.

See, Kade, agrees with Isabel that they were looking for an excuse and figures they would've found a way to shut it down even without Staten Island. Even if it took another 10 years.

I OOCLY AGREE RICHARD WOULD BEAT BATMAN. Not Superman, though.

RICH. Pigeon. <3 Rich's forthright nature is a bit at odds with the very many secrets he is called to keep. Are there things he wishes he could share more? Are there things he occasionally just wants to tell someone?

What does he miss most about his time period?

Rich and Vega's friendship (?) is a curious one based in part about how it came about. What does he think of her now that she is a more real part of his life? Less a drive by sky-partner.

RICH. Pigeon. <3 Rich's forthright nature is a bit at odds with the very many secrets he is called to keep. Are there things he wishes he could share more? Are there things he occasionally just wants to tell someone?

Oh maaaaaaaaaan. There are lots of stuff he wants to tell people all the time. He doesn't enjoy not being able to detail these huge, life-shattering events in his life. We haven't gotten him knowing about certain PCs who lost people on Staten Island, but when he does, he'll have a horrible, twisty guilt wanting to tell them and martyr himself.

It's just rough when it's like -- there are these big huge things in your life, like whole years of your life, and you can't even talk about it. Years. Fortunately he's got some XF folks, and he has Jeremy who kind of heard some stuff from Xavier enough that there's no point not talking about it. But you're right that Richard's natural inclination is being honest and forthright, and it definitely chafes.

What does he miss most about his time period?

His parents. They were dead by the time he got back. And just -- his friends. His life. Anyone who cared about who didn't make it.

Rich and Vega's friendship (?) is a curious one based in part about how it came about. What does he think of her now that she is a more real part of his life? Less a drive by sky-partner.

He misses what they had a little bit, to be honest! It was so unique and kind of wistful and comforting in its anonymity. It's not that he dislikes Vega, but it's stranger now for him not to know her now that he -- knows her. If that makes sense. Now she's a woman with a name whom he only knows a little about, versus a stranger with a nickname that he's purposefully keeping anonymous.

He of all people does feel for the ex-MA folks, though. I mean, he did that. Not MA, but NYPD. He did it, and he revealed himself, and he got kicked out. That they were a part of MA still chafes a bit, but not nearly so much as -- pretty much everyone else. He understands what they were trying to do.

So he's slowly coming around to being curious about her just as a regular person in his life. The legs are cool.

That does make sense. I'm definitely curious to poke that more with you. (We should take them flying again)

Tat basically asked my question already. Uhm. HOW MANY SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES CAN WE CRAM INTO ONE SHIP?

like FIVE BILLION

  • If Richard could go to back to his AU, would he?
  • Talk about Richard's relatiionship with his brother. Yes.
  • Is Richard just taking pity on Rohan because he knows he's sad, or is it more complicated. Does he secretly want to jump his bones? (I'm kidding on that. Mostly.)

If Richard could go to back to his AU, would he?

Yes.

Talk about Richard's relatiionship with his brother. Yes.

Oh, Robbie Robbie Robbie.

Who even names their sons Richard and Robert? Ah well.

Robbie has always been brilliant. He was the sort of guy who was building robots in middle school. (Marvel never met a scientist that they didn't turn into a SUPER scientist.) He was actually working in the government before Rich was even in X-Force. They both grew up envying certain things about each other: Rich was jealous of Robbie's brains and overall success in school, Robbie was jealous of Rich's mutation and later heroic inclinations. They fought like crazy the way brothers do, and they also loved each other fiercely. There were probably times when Rich defended Robbie from bullies at school and the like; he wasn't the biggest guy himself, but he was bigger than Robbie, and after he manifested he could at least use his better reflexes publicly.

They became adults. Both were still jealous of each other. There are scenes from XMM where Rich is telling Iz about Robbie and he's so obviously insecure about it and has heard a million times from his parents about how awesome Robbie is doing, etc., etc. That part didn't go away when they grew up.

And then Rich was gone. And he came back to a brother who had been fighting for decades to try and find him. Rich desperately wanted to connect with Robbie, but at the same time he was hurt and terrified and everything was so *different*. Robbie was no longer a familiar touchstone, because Robbie was -- old. Time had taken the familiarity of Earth from Rich, and he just couldn't handle it. He couldn't deal with his feelings or with Robbie's feelings or any of it. It's not until the very recent on-cam stuff that he's finally started to come around to that.

Is Richard just taking pity on Rohan because he knows he's sad, or is it more complicated. Does he secretly want to jump his bones? (I'm kidding on that. Mostly.)

Rich doesn't necessarily want to jump Rohan's bones, although he certainly thinks he's a handsome guy. But whatever attraction might exist, the kindness is unrelated to it.

I think there are a number of things here. Some of them have been stated openly on-cam, like just the fact that Rich understands what it's like to be the target of Ciel's ire. Some of it is pity, or more accurately empathy. I think some people, when they endure something really traumatic, really grow in their capacity for empathy. Rich is not so bright and sunny as he once was, but he has a real capacity of feeling and a maturity of insight he didn't have as a younger man.

Part of it is that he likes Rohan. Just from a genuine, friendly sort of standpoint. He thinks Ro's sharp and funny and just a nice guy to have as a friend. He certainly doesn't have the capacity to sort of be the emotional anchor for any deeply wounded person he comes across. There were certain choices involved with opening himself up to that with Rohan. It was purposeful. He saw Rohan and pain and said, "This is a guy I like and he's worth giving something of myself to help him. So I'm going to."

Has Huruma ever had a serious relationship with someone, be it romantic, friendship, or family? If so, what was it like? If not, why not?

What is Huruma's biggest regret?

Where did she learn her empathy skillz?

This came up a little on plot - but what was the hardest decision Huruma ever had to make? How did she handle it? Does she regret her choices now?

She is a hard woman to read. Is there anyone she is starting to feel close to in XF? Is there anyone who drives her a little crazy?

What's her favorite flavor of ice cream?

  • I find Huruma's empathy abilities really interesting, because she can see through the various fronts people present to the world to what they're actually feeling. What does she think people lie about or try to hide - either from others or from themselves - most often?

- Kade

What's it like being surrounded by fluffy puppies and do-gooders all the time??

What does Hu think of Jer? I know we've touched on this a little in RP but less so recently in part because I have not gotten as much on-cam time as I'd like.

Huruma is a fascinating combination of empathetic due to her powers yet a bit isolated and removed. TALK ABOUT THAT.

How empathetic do you think she'd be if she didn't have her powers? Like, is she good at reading and responding to people without them?

  • I'm fascinated by the fact Huruma's powers specifically extend toward animals, which is not typical for empaths. What is her general relationship with animals like? What does she think of this? Animals vs people--have an opinion?
  • Do you have any thoughts about her relationship with Rohan? (I know it's mostly ad-libbed on the spot by us as the situation requires, but I'm curious if you have any greater insight.)

I'm fascinated by the fact Huruma's powers specifically extend toward animals, which is not typical for empaths. What is her general relationship with animals like? What does she think of this? Animals vs people--have an opinion?

They extend to animals in a very basic way-- animals have a rawness to them that still generates an emotional bond, but they aren't sentient enough to have that conscious, moving emotional range.

Huruma finds animals to be refreshing, I think; there's nothing to cloud their emotions like there is with people. Even on a very base level, I think it would be something like a cool drink for someone whose senses are always so attuned to the finer, wild details of people's subconscious.

As for her relationship with animals, in the same way that she is able to read them I imagine they have the same sense for her. If she had to choose one over the other I think she might choose the animals, honestly. She doesn't have to read them as much, they don't hide things from her, and the selves they show are the most honest ones. She need not worry about deception or tricks from animals, but at the same time she does not remotely possess the same skill as she does with humans.


Do you have any thoughts about her relationship with Rohan? (I know it's mostly ad-libbed on the spot by us as the situation requires, but I'm curious if you have any greater insight.)

When we first developed the relationship I remember we spoke about a rivalry-- I think a lot of our ad-libbing still manages to touch upon that, and I am super fond of it.

They've known each other for at least several years, and even in a working relationship that is a long time to know someone. I think maybe on a deeper level they relate more than they think; what comes to mind is the few times that she has approached Rohan in a situation and he has responded to her with the way he is trying to mediate his own issues. I recall especially the conversation about masks, and him asking her about her reasons for doing it-- and keeping it going. I really liked that she didn't have much of an answer for this question.

They are similar but different, sometimes; he shows more of his heart to others, and she likes to hide it away. I really think that she could actually learn some things from him about being more open. Even some of the others in XFS have helped her this way, but Rohan knows what kind of life she came from, at least the one he knew her from. He has more of an insight into what makes someone like that tick, I think. What can make someone like her open up more than what's on the playful surface. Maybe they can learn to help one another with the whole 'moving on' aspect.

So Rohan's clearly got a Thing for Ciel - what draws him to her? Why did she become his shining light? Has any of it changed since he's arrived in New York?

Rohan and Richie are adorbs as bros. What makes them click? What might cause issues between them in the future?

If Rohan could do any job in the world, what would it be?

  • Is there anything Rohan misses about India? His life there was obviously pretty rough, but he also spent something like 20 years there, and I'm wondering if there's anything about the culture, particular places, or specific people there he's some version of homesick for.

- Kade

How does Rohan feel about working for XFS? Do you think volunteering for Open Hands will help resolve some of his issues?

How does Rohan feel about Eleanor (esp now that they for sure know each other's names and stuff)? (I want to RP them again! This is not a question! Where does the time go...)

How does Rohan feel about working for XFS?

This is actually a surprisingly complicated question.

Rohan was an early hold-out on joining XFS, because he wasn't convinced it would do any good. (And when he finally did join up, it had more to do with needing money and some people to talk to than anything else.) Ro is not a lawful type; in fact, he’s spent a lot of his life being the opposite. He’s also a realist, but less by nature than from the fact he’s spent a good portion of his adult life struggling, sometimes in very harsh conditions, and he has a survivor’s pragmatism.

However, he’s seen a lot of shit, and he’s actually really, really tired of how cruel the world is. He also (and this is one of the things I love about the character) has a surprisingly soft heart if you hit him the right way. He doesn’t have sympathy for everyone, but he’s got a huge soft spot for animals in distress, kids who’ve screwed their lives up, and people who badly need second chances. He was also raised by people who may not have been superspies or terrorists or really very exciting or notable in any way--but who were fundamentally kind and decent. (Regardless of their reaction to his mutation, which I think was actually more complicated than he ever realized and hope to give him some closure at some point.) That basic kindness and decency is still there, underneath, if you scratch him hard enough. He was also in a place where he was pretty lost himself, and he needed a purpose and people he could rely on.

For a bit, he got into it. He started to feel he had a purpose and a place. But then stuff happened, and he ended up coming to the conclusion that, with a couple of notable exceptions, he had been wrong and no one really wanted him around or to be his friend. (Admittedly, Tom’s ever so reassuring about how people would always be afraid of them because of what they were didn’t help. Ro has yet to develop the faith in the good he can do to counterbalance this.) So he’s drifting a bit. He still does jobs; it helps him to feel useful, but he’s actively feeling like an unwanted outsider. There was a moment in the meeting last night when he almost turned around without sharing his info and went to be a solo vigilante because he felt taken for granted. (Yes, I know that would been really crappy of me to do as a player--I wouldn’t!) I’m hoping that when he stabiiizes a bit more, he’ll still feeling like an unwanted outsider, and come back to the centre of things.

Do you think volunteering for Open Hands will help resolve some of his issues?

Dear lord, I hope so, because at this point as much as I love angst, his is still lingering perilously close to an unplayable level.

That said, I think it might. See above for some discussion of his soft heart and his sympathy for the downtrodden. He thinks he’s going to be rubbish at it, which is a big part of why he hesitated so long at finishing out his application (well, that my vacation/sick), but I think he might be surprisingly good. He feels he fucked up his whole life by making some really bad decisions when he was young, and this casts a shadow over his life. Because he has screwed up himself, he might be able to help other people avoid his mistakes, or help them come back from them. Helping other people might give him some confidence and hope. I also think from a purely RP viewpoint, having a new arena for him to run around in might help freshen him up.

Here’s hoping. ;)

How does Rohan feel about Eleanor (esp now that they for sure know each other's names and stuff)?

This is actually hard to answer at length because it has been so long since we RPed. So we need to!

Rohan is intrigued by Eleanor. He feels a sort of kinship with her that to him is odd and unexpected; he hasn’t known many other psionics and they almost knew each other on a mental level first, which is just weird to him, and it led to him being more open with her with than he normally is because she already knew the part of him that he keeps hidden and can this sentence be any more run-on? She’s also gone out of her way to be kind to him, and that generally just confuses him. He can’t understand being kind to him when there’s no obvious reason to be so.

In short, we need to RP :)

How's Rosalie doing with the whole surrounded by other mutants thing? How is working with her powers going?

How's Rosalie doing with the whole surrounded by other mutants thing?

She likes it. She's fascinated by it, because she's never really been in a world where people are so open about something she always considered shameful. She often bluntly asks people what their mutation is, because it thrills her that she can do that.

On the other hand, she often feels out of place and out of step. She doesn't know what to say to people a lot of the time--this is a world that is not hers.

How is working with her powers going?

I keep having to remind myself that this can progress off-camera (it's a bit sticky to work with on-camera, beacuse it often involves going into the nitty-gritty of how powers work, and not everyone wants to think that hard--I often don't!). She keeps getting a little better. It might be years before she's Storm-level, but she has some minor control now. At the moment, that mostly means she can control minor temperature fluctuations, and sometimes reduce weather storms she's inadvertently stirred up. That is, if she can concentrate. SOMEONE FREQUENTLY DISTRACTS HER.

As I said, it's a slow process, and that's partly because it's fun playing with her semi-controlled weather powers.

RO. You are really sad. Kind of like Richie! Do you think the two of them would get on so well if they didn't recognize that in each other?

ROsalie. Talk about Tiffany!

ROsalie. Talk about Tiffany!

That's a bit...open.

Rosalie is very repressed. I've gone back and forth a bit on whether she did have any sort of love life before she realized she was a mutant; on the whole I think she was shy and awkward and didn't really. But since she became aware of her nature, she's firmly locked away any feelings of attraction or lust, because she's well aware of the sort of weather havoc arousal or sex could cause. She's spent several years keeping away from people as much as possible; she really arranged her pre-XFS life very carefully.

She has an attraction to Tiffany, which startled her (and me). She's starting to live a little and the idea she can be like a normal person is attractive. At the same time, the sheer chaos even just mild arousal causes with weather patterns is terrifying her; she doesn't want to be the person who flooded New York just to get off. She's really caught in the middle right now, between being safe and taking a chance.

Where is that going? I have no idea.

RO. You are really sad. Kind of like Richie! Do you think the two of them would get on so well if they didn't recognize that in each other?

I don't think they'd have never gotten along if they didn't, but I think it's put them in a situation where they have greater intimacy than they otherwise would.

Rohan is sad. (This is not what I originally intended for the character, but, you know, shit happens.) He's really sad; it's probably fair to say he's depressed at this point. A lot of this is from recently getting his heart pulverized to smithereens, but a lot of it is also due to generally not having the happiest life, being in survival mode for a long time, and, once he's gotten to a safe place (He thinks it's safe. He hopes it's safe. I'm not sure if it is.) where he can stop and process a bit, all his old shit has smacked him in the face.

He's not good at being sad. It's always something he's pushed aside and tried to play the joker. He doesn't know how to talk about it, he doesn't want to talk about it, and he doesn't have the emotional vocabulary to express his sadness. However, for a short period of time, he was so overwhelmed he couldn't not talk about it. (The extra sad bit is that although he's moved on from this stage, he's not actually any less sad; he's just more under control.) Richie found him at this time, when Ro was completely lost, and Ro could actually talk to him about it, without shame or embarrassed or fear of being judged, because Richie got it.

I'm honestly not sure whether they'll be lasting bros or it's an intense crisis relationship that might fade when no longer needed it, but at the moment Ro's really glad to have him.

Rosalie:

How's Rosalie feel about New York in general? Does she ever have second thoughts about coming? Why or why not?

How's Rosalie feel about her encounter with honest to goodness terrorists, and especially about Tempete?

Rosalie has spent much of her life clamping down on emotions and similar things. Has any of this eased at all? What has been most tempting since coming to New York?

How's Rosalie feel about New York in general?

There's part of her that likes being here. It has just enough in common with Toronto, her home town, to make it feel a tiny bit familiar. She's been living in a smaller city for a few years and very carefully isolating herself from everything, but part of her did miss living in a larger place. The bustle, the food, the theatre, the museums, the events, the lights, etc. She's shy, but she's not immune to vibrance and excitement.

On the other hand, she's terrified. There's so many people around--so many people she could hurt if things go wrong. And she's uncomfortable in crowds, both because she's not really big on people crowding her to begin with, but also because the more of them there are, the more aware she is of how much she could hurt them if she lost control, which just makes her more tense. She had an interesting scene with Richard a while back where she explained her problems with public transit. And New York is enough different from the places she's been to unbalance her--the size, the crowds, the funny money... :)

Does she ever have second thoughts about coming? Why or why not?

She thinks her life would have been quieter if she'd stayed in denial. Probably. Maybe. She misses her job (which she is technically on leave from, so I have a nice excuse to whisk her offstage if I so decide), and she's yet to find one here other than XFS. She doesn't like being idle. It makes her fret. Fretting is bad.

How's Rosalie feel about her encounter with honest to goodness terrorists, and especially about Tempete?

She was terrified. I mean, she's a librarian (okay, archivist). Terrorists happen to other people. All that violence is something that's completely foreign to her. (She had a pretty similar reaction to being caught in Russian violence in a bodega during that plot.)

She also felt extra helpless, because although she is constantly afraid of the damage she could do if she was unleashed, she also knows if she is scared enough, her powers will kick in to defend her. Tempete took that confidence from her. He shut down her powers completely, so she couldn't even rely on that instinctive defences. He is an example that it's possible to channel her powers; but do you have to be a terrorist to chain that sort of power? Besides, Frenchmen who are trying to be charming are automatically suspicious.

Rosalie has spent much of her life clamping down on emotions and similar things. Has any of this eased at all? What has been most tempting since coming to New York?

I think mostly I'll toss this one back toward my answer on Tiffany. I don't have anything extra to add, really.

  • Given Rosalie's age, did she ever consider going to Xavier's? Why or why not? Did she ever look for another avenue to train her powers (even just for control purposes)?

- Kade

Given Rosalie's age, did she ever consider going to Xavier's? Why or why not?

This is something I thought had been covered in about half of the scenes I'd done with her, but maybe the connection was only clear in my head, which happens to me sometime.

There are a couple of reasons why Xavier's was never really an option for Rosalie. The first is that she realized she was a mutant quite late. She did manifest in puberty, but she didn't put the pieces together and realize it until much later, into her twentties. This is something I actually find a bit fascinating--how do you realize you're a mutant? Obviously, if you're someone who blows things up or sets things on fire, it's pretty clear, but some mutations are so odd or indirect it seems unlikely to even stumble into how you know you can do that in the first place. Rosalie might have twigged on earlier if she'd ever summoned weather indoors, which in theory she is caapble of, but she never did. Weather can be such a quirky thing in its own right and it would honestly seem to take some madness or egotism to even consider you're responsible for it. Rosalie had to see a lot of 'coincidences' and patterns before she realized it was her. At that time she was finishing up grad school, and a school for gifted youngsters seemed an unlikely place to head.

To add to that, she's Canadian. Technically (as I decided recently to head off paperwork headaches), she's a dual US-Canadian citizen, as her dad's American, but she mostly retains the US citizenship for unpatrioitc convenience. Before she came to New York, she'd only lived in Canada and identifies as Canadian. It not only didn't occur to her to go to the US to look for help, she might have run into roadblocks if crossing borders to study openly as a mutant, dual citizen or not.

Did she ever look for another avenue to train her powers (even just for control purposes)?

She did look, but Mutants Training R Us isn't exactly listed in the yellow pages. It doesn't help that she's always been a bit shy and socially awkward, and she's from a nice secure upper middle class background where they had great sympathy for liberal causes but little connection with reality, especially when it comes to things like actual living mutants. She fell back on denial and tranquilisers.

A lot of Rohan's recent struggle has been learning more about his powers and getting a handle on the ethics of using them. Does he have any regrets about the change of heart on occasion? Does he have any memories he's collected that aren't his but that he feels strongly about?

What did he hope he'd find in New York? What does he want for himself now?

Kade was the reluctant one in this relationship, but seems pretty all-in now. What changed his mind?

Who's the closest thing Kade has to a best bro in XFS? Why do they click?

Kade's got a hell of a relationship with his ex. What was their marriage like? Tell me their story.

Kade's got a hell of a relationship with his ex. What was their marriage like? Tell me their story.

LOL Kade's marriage. Sierra Player and I haven't developed every detail of it, but basically: they were fuck buddies back in California, he knocked her up, he'd always wanted a family so was like WE SHOULD GET MARRIED THIS'LL BE AWESOME, and that was (predictably) a mistake. I think he literally appeared at the X-Force offices on Monday all GUESS WHAT I GOT MARRIED IN VEGAS OVER THE WEEKEND after having almost no prior serious relationship with her. They were two people who weren't ready to be married and probably wouldn't have been a very good couple under even ideal circumstances. In a lot of ways he was a pretty terrible husband, both because he was fully committed to X-Force at the expense of his personal life, and just because he emotionally disengaged after a certain point when it stopped being fun (though we think she was the one who actually dumped him). He looks on his marriage as a pretty big failure on his part, as much as he outwardly bitches about his ex.

- Kade

Who's the closest thing Kade has to a best bro in XFS? Why do they click?

Building up his friendships with the folks at XFS is something Kade's been working on. What he said to Ciel around Christmas was, at least in his mind, accurate. He didn't have any real friends in New York when he moved here, outside his old X-Force cohorts, and even they weren't people he'd talked to much in years. In general, I think his social circle shrank pretty hugely after X-Force collapsed, since he didn't have many meaningful relationships outside it. He's a guy who I picture as being very extroverted, and of always having had a pretty big group of at least casual friends, so this was one of the many things that made those years demoralizing for him. I think when he first moved to NYC he was wary of it being a big mistake, for various reasons, so it took him awhile to start opening up to people.

I think so far he's spent the most time socially, outside bigger gatherings, with Jeremy. Who he has random life things in common with, because they're around the same age, and who is a blast to get blazed with. He's also really appreciated the few times he's hung out with Ian, who he sees as a good model for an out mutant who's built a life for himself in the normal world, and as just a nice guy he'd like to hang with more often. He's trying to help out Mikhail, but he's not sure if he should be a bro or more father figure to the kid. I see this as an area of life he's trying a lot to develop and is ongoing, though, because I think if NYC is going to work for him, building up a network of people he can hang with is going to be a major part of that.

- Kade

This isn't a question, but gosh I feel like I want to do more RP with you about this stuff.

YES RP WITH ME ALL THE TIME J-BOMB.

4 serious, I always enjoy Kade/Jeremy scenes and we should hook up again soon.

wHEN ARE WE ALL GETTING HIGH WITH ROHAN AND TALKING ABOUT BLOWJOBS

Kade was the reluctant one in this relationship, but seems pretty all-in now. What changed his mind?

I think there are a few things going on here.

Firstly, Lexie called him a wuss and it REALLY BOTHERED HIM. http://xfnyc.riverdark.net/wiki/2045-12-28_Apply_Forehead_Directly_to_Table

Second. We've talked a little bit about this with Mikhail (in terms of why Kade would be in many ways easy to manipulate with those sorts of powers), but I think Kade is a guy with both a tendency to make snap, impulsive decisions (especially where his passions are concerned), and one who's old enough to be keenly aware of what a problem this has sometimes been for him and fight this part of himself really hard. Sleeping with Ciel was something he just wanted in that moment, so he just did it. And then, he started thinking about all the potential problems it could cause and desperately tried to walk it back. He was also honestly surprised she was interested in more than a fling with him. I think he figured she'd just want to kick their friendship up to being fuck buddies, which is something the Sierra Disaster taught him he's not emotionally wired to do. So he had a lot of preconceptions about what she wanted from him, and was convinced he'd messed up one of the few long-term connections he had in NYC in a moment of poor impulse control. Once he realized she didn't suddenly hate him now, and got it into his brain she'd said she'd be into something more serious, he let himself pursue it. And for better or worse, he is 110% about things once he decides to do them.

I also think he's just kind of good at the early, honeymoon stage of dating. There's a performative quality to the flowers/chocolates/hearts stuff that he enjoys, even though he might deny it. I think his history is littered with 2-6 month pseudo-relationships that never really got beyond this. I don't see him as a dog, precisely, but I think he's very bad at being alone, and historically also bad at stopping the performative thing and being real with people. Even his marriage and engagement had serious intimacy problems he didn't really acknoweldge until they became ruinous. X-Force both exaccerbated and enabled this, since a lot of the most important parts of his life were legitimately CLASSIFIED, but he didn't try particularly hard to take care of his connections outside of it.

In a lot of ways I think what he's doing with Ciel now is new for him, because she actually does know him, and I think they are actual friends along with whatever else they're becoming, so he trusts her in ways that keep him from hiding behind a lot of his bullshit. She's also shown a willingness to be vulnerable with him that's surprised him. He knows how hard that is for her, and it makes him want to reciprocate. Though he's also afraid of horribly disappointing her by not living up to whatever awesome image she had of him when she was younger, so this is something he'll flail with in the future I think.

I HOPE SOME OF THIS ANSWERED THE QUESTION.

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